Excuses Excuses

"Life teaches us to make good use of time, While time teaches us the value of life. " -unknown

Man I started this blog to be an outlet and a way to share this journey I am currently living through. To be perfectly honest each day presents a new challenge. Everyday I have to force myself to push through and smile. If it weren't for me believing that their is something bigger to come out of this, I would have quit. 

I originally planned to write every week. However I think it's more genuine and authentic when I just allow my mind to flow and just think through my topics. 

This week all I seem to think about is excuses. Excuses tend to take over in my life when I start to feel overwhelmed. When I have a lot on my plate I start to slowly shut down and suddenly I become a hot mess full of excuses as to why I did or did not do something. Excuses seem to creep into my life every so often when I feel like I have to prove something to myself or to other people. 

I am 26 years old, I just started working in my career a little over a year ago, and I still manage to make excuses. I get overwhelmed and as I just mentioned I get frazzled and slowly I begin to shut down. I allow my lack of confidence, dictate my actions. I seem to give into my flaws and weaknesses and make excuses. Excuses as to why I couldn't do something in my job. Excuses as to why my paperwork wasn't complete or why I didn't go above and beyond for someone. I just want to be good enough. I have always been a rule follower and I just wanted to stay on course with my skewed beliefs; which leads me back to thinking about why I have chosen this route that I am on. 

In just 2 months I have been through an interesting journey. I feel like I've lived a handful of life changing events that pretty much forced me out of believing I have control of my life. I would like to believe that I am the master of always having a plan when in actuality there is so much going on around me reminding me that my plans may sound good but I need slow down! 

I need to slow down and instead of making excuses as to why I did or did not do something I need to be more assertive and confident and deliberate with the decisions I make. I need to allow myself to make mistakes and grow and work on having a postive mindset. There is not one person on this earth that is perfect and at the end of the day for me I think it is time to just live life and care for people. Treat others the way I would like to be treated and step off the judgement path. 

If I have learned anything from this journey it is that life goes on, excuses or no excuses. People are not going to remember how I feel about this journey but they will remember my reaction. I refuse to let other people and my insecurities dictate my journey.  I will not allow negativity to cloud my purpose. I will, however live life on purpose. I will work on changing this negative into a positive however I am going to need to be held accountable. 

If you are reading this blog thank you for taking a few minutes to read my thoughts. This blog isn't just about me. I know there are people out there who think that they are alone in feeling overwhelmed or even unsure about the choices you are making but I challenge you to leave with this thought in mind; Our days on this earth are limited. How we use our time is on us. We did not know that we were going to be born just as we do not know how and when we will leave this earth. Do not allow family, friends, acquaintances, strangers, or bullies to make decisions for you. An excuse will only set you back from your purpose and at the end of the day how you live your life is solely your decision. 

We all make mistakes. It's not the mistakes that make or break us but it is what we do after that will set precedence on how we act in our own lives. So next time you have an excuse for something remind yourself that excuses make you defensive and allow you to justify behaviors that are detrimental to your growth. Don't make excuses, just live life on purpose! Next time you feel like passing judgement on a person remember that life is full of the imperfect and the unconfident. Excuses allow us to be less accountable. Give people chances and most importantly give yourself a chance. You never know how events in your life can inspire not only yourself but others too. 

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